epic haiku

depravity, improvision, plans

Last night we watched Quills. It sparked some interesting dialogue about being aware of ones own depravity so it doesn't control you, and not giving into ones own depravity so it doesn't control you. There were themes of Christ's suffering that were all to briefly touched on, it would have been cool if they would have explored that more, instead of giving into the glorification of the suffering of de Sade, who Kaufman sort of made into a martyr- though not really over dramatically, just subtly enough to go under the radar. I like it. The disc was scratched so we missed almost a full ten minutes mid film. I would like to hear the commentary. Kaufman, the director, also did The Unbearable Lightness of Being, which is a favorite book and well liked movie of mine.

Heavenly Creatures was okay. I just didn't get that into it, although I did say afterwords "It's hard to be fifteen" just because I remember how intensly I felt everything then to, not because I related to what they were intense about.

I haven't written much lately, or at least this week. I guess that sort of makes up for the gush of typing I did last week. I have been working on a lot of fiction, but I haven't written any poetry. That makes me sad just because poetry is so cleansing for me. I miss the process. When I write I normally have to hide myself away somewhere because the stream of though and concentration on words is so intense. That's why I have compared it to vomiting induced by muses. It just sort of comes out. I have been digesting a lot though, so I am sure soon my thoughts and feelings will spill.

I have been making up songs lately while I work. I used to do that when I was a kid and sing them to my dog... I wonder how many other dogs had to endure improvised love songs dedicated to them.... Rod does this to when he works. He is working on one for me. So far is just goes: "Low- DEE- ko- woe woe woe woe" like an old dowop sort of thing. Rod is great to work for. We start the morning with prayer requests, which is just so nice. I love the spiritual fill up. I am feeling more connected with the body of Christ because of it. I also finally found a ride to New City, so I will be able to go to my own church this summer! That makes me extremely happy.

Tonight I have to do some laundry, talk on the phone (which I finally have), maybe bake some bread, and hopefully watch some more Gilmore Girls episodes (Linnea brought back the entire first season... I love it. Eb refuses to be in the house though when we watch them, which sort of sucks, but I guess if I ever need to keep him away we have a method to ensure it.) Infradig is playing at Barking Legs!!! Unless I am so tired tomorrow (after work) that I want to die, I am going.