I felt heard, someplace in my head, when I wasn't even speaking.
I know I can raise my voice and speak articulately if I need to.
I know I can be still and watch the world go by and not worry about impacting the ripple.
Shackles off my back.
The silent dissonance of the subway has always been in my brain.
I don't have to defend what I care about because no one else's opinion is ever going to change that.
I felt like it was okay to be behind
I can always see what's going on ahead.
I am more comfortable being assertive and not letting myself be put in awkward situations just because of the potential of making other people feel more comfortable.
I still feel frustrated with life and how much I want to make it work well and sucking marrow and all that, but I am satisfied with last months attempt.
I learned not everyone is weird about talking about pain. Sometimes it is embracd and refreshing.
Still reaching out to someday maintain that fierce calm, although I love my poker face. Life really is a big ole' poker game.
Posted by Deke at May 29, 2006 04:45 AM | TrackBackSpeaking of big ol' poker game, we shall begin one soon...come over.
Posted by: Ryan at May 29, 2006 06:10 PM